Really Wanna Know

Every night I wake up, 3 in the mornin'

Imsomnia keeps a little nigga zonin'

Cause I don't think they wanna know

What's on the other side

Darkness

, but this ain't as dark as it gets

Laugh at them when they thought a nigga lost his wit

It's ok now cause it all seems legit

And your probably full of shit

Thank you for the light

Now I'm draped in all black

With an empty Jack bottle and with a logo on my hat

Always and forever, just know I got your back

I will die for you homie just to put it like that

Nothing here is fake so deep down you know

There's no limit I won't go

If I have to let it show

Words can't express how I feel

Pain will linger, some wounds never heal

Because I'm living in a world where the sun don't shine

And the sound of a shot might blow a nigga's mind

If you really wanna know

If you really wanna know

I don't think you wanna know

See I remember when we first met

Middle school thumpin'

Biggest homie on the block

Only one dunkin'

Mushroom cut on a six foot frame

Stretched out colored tee

With a barbecue stain

Yes Big B I remember those days

They will never leave me

Or lead me astray

I fight and I feel your pain

But no matter what I do

This shit will not go away!

I wish that it would all go away!

I wish god would listen everytime that I pray

I'm speechless but there's so much to say

Every day is a blessin' but I'm living in the shade

And hope is all I got left

How can I be alive when I have to drink death

Everything right rocks

I guess it is what it is

It just ain't what you thought

Because I'm living in a world where the sun don't shine

And the sound of a shot might blow a nigga's mind

If you really wanna know

If you really wanna know

I don't think you wanna know

Now I'm haunted by nightmares from the past

Like the time we got drunk to go ride in the van

Swervin' in and out of lanes

With your foot on the gas

Full speed down the street

Lost control then crashed

And all I can see was broken glass

I was sprawled on the pavement layed out pitch black

I woke up saw your face on the dash

Heard you yell my name but I was out so fast

Now there's nothing in life we can't cope with

I don't give a fuck about a doctor's diagnosis

Paranoid skitzo, manic depression

Can not hold back a candid confession

To you B comin truely from the heart

I'll be there till the end

Cause you were there from the start

From a brotha to anotha

You'll never have to suffer

Cause you will always have your brothas