Momma. I Still Call Your Name

I didn't know

I didn't know the last time I hugged you

Would be the last time

If I had known

I would've held on longer

Now the world keeps moving

But my heart

My heart is still standing in that moment

The house still looks the same

But it don't feel like home

Your chair still sitting there

But you ain't sittin' on that throne

I hear the clock ticking loud

In the quiet of the room

Every second reminds me

You left too soon

Sometimes I wake up reaching

Thinking you're down the hall

Then the silence hits me

And I break and fall

They say time heals the pain

But they don't understand

When a mother leaves this world

A child loses their land

Momma

I still call your name in the night

When the pain in my heart gets too heavy to fight

Momma

I still hear your voice in my mind

Telling me baby everything gon' be fine

But the tears keep falling

Like rain in a storm

Since heaven took you

This world feels torn

Momma

I still need you here

I tried to be strong today

Like you taught me to be

But grief walked in

And sat down next to me

I smelled your perfume

In the kitchen air

For a moment I turned

Thinking you were there

My mind knows the truth

But my heart won't agree

It keeps looking for the woman

Who believed in me

Sometimes I cry so hard

I can barely breathe

Because the arms that held me

Are the arms I can't reach

Momma

I still call your name in the night

When my soul feels too broken to fight

Momma

I still hear your prayers in my sleep

And sometimes I wake up

Just weeping and weeping

The tears keep falling

Like rain in a storm

Since heaven took you

This world feels torn

Momma

I still need you here

They say grown men don't cry

But they never lost a mother

Cause when she leaves this earth

Something inside you

Leaves with her

And no matter how old you are

You're still her baby

Momma

I still whisper your name in the dark

Trying to mend this shattered heart

Momma

I feel your love in the air

But God knows I wish you were still here

And every tear that falls from my eyes

Is love that death could never disguise

Momma

I'll carry your love

Until the day I come home to you.