All The Shit I Won't Be

Already know how this shit all ends

Haven't been me since the 2010's

Drink it away 'cause I got no friends

Wake up fucked up, do it all again

Never go out, well that shit depends

If I try texting and that shit don't send

Then I'll be gone 'til like 5 A.M

Just a number she won't ever call again

All the shit I won't be

I said I was gon' be

I just been so lonely

So lonely

So lonely

All the shit you told me

Sitting in the nosebleeds

Wonder if you could hold me

No, hold me

No, hold me back, I'll walk it out

All of those things we used to talk about

Middle-class kids tryna make it out

All it ever was was chasing clout

Been a few years, I'm different now

All of those dreams, I'm missing now

All the little things I'm pissed about

None of this life shit figured out

But oh

Every single place I go

I ain't ever felt so low

I don't even fucking know

Fucking know

Fucking know

And every time I think I'm fine

All of that shit rewinds

Tell me why I keep on trying

Keep on trying

Keep on trying that shit, but it ain't gon' sell

Trying that shit, never works, oh well

Trying those drugs, but that shit don't help

Hating this song like I hate myself

Know it's all gone, no this shit won't last

Time of my life, but I can't go back

'Member those times, but that's in my past

I've been so alone like damn, that's sad

And tired of no fucking outcomes

I don't know where this doubt from

I don't really wanna go sound dumb

But I don't feel okay

And these problems I get, like how come?

Never really lived without them

No solutions, ain't found one

Fuck, I'm fine, I'm okay

Problems all in my way

Missing out, M.I.A

Memories in my brain

I remember those days

Palm trees, beaches, cafés

Bumpin' Feel No Ways

Windows down and my shades on

Never leaving that phase

But I wanna feel that again

Now it's just lies when they ask how I been

Tell me how long I been playing pretend

I need somebody, don't have any friends

Ain't got the passion no more for those dreams

Ones I was chasing when I was sixteen

Maybe I changed from the shit that I've seen

Maybe I changed, but yuh

Gotta hold shit back, fuck

Even I know that

Making songs, they laugh

You don't know my past

You don't know who I am

You don't know who I was

Say you don't give a damn

But they always judge

Every time, every time

Seeing signs, seeing signs

Tell me why, tell me why

I don't wanna live this life

Chasing lies, chasing fame

Everyone says I changed

I forgot, what's your name?

I need something, blow my brains

I need something for this pain

I need something, I'm insane

Double shots and novocaine

Ain't gon' lie, it ain't the same

All I ever do's complain

Scared of who I done became

Someone tell me when it changed

Tell me, is this all in vain?