is anyone listening? (unfiltered)

I'm cutting again

On the bathroom floor

Just to feel something

Cover my wrists

Under long sleeve shirts

Not like you'd notice

Ride the high from the blood

Dripping down as I

Drown in the silence

Feel guilty as fuck

But I cover it up again

I feel it all at once

And nothing at all

I fell in the forest

But nobody heard it

When will you notice

That I'm at my lowest?

I'm tired of screaming

You never believe me

Is anyone listening?

Is anyone listening?

Now I'm two weeks clean

But it's hard as hell and it's so tempting

Standing over the sink

Staring at myself, I'm so depressing

The way I look in the mirror

Makes me feel like a whole lot of nothing

Now I'm doubting myself

But I wanna get well again

I feel it all at once

And nothing at all

I fell in the forest

But nobody heard it

When will you notice

That I'm at my lowest?

I'm tired of screaming

You never believe me

Is anyone listening?

Is anyone listening?

I'm tired of screaming

Will you only believe me

If I go code blue?

I fell in the forest

But nobody heard it

When will you notice

That I'm at my lowest?

I'm tired of screaming

You never believe me

Is anyone listening?