Understand

I'm riddled by your bulletin that you pushed right in

Like a memo in my heart

That reminds of the chance it lost to start

So instead of this dance

I will ask you to elucidate

The steps that forced us to this fate

Has our time been worth all this trouble?

And to be so damn mystified by the circumcised

Head that's on my shoulders

That you scalped and you left for me to hold, dear

And if I am bereft of the answer

I'll look in my eye

And I will no longer lie

'Cause I'm too detached to be subtle

I really believe

You were filling a hole

You were looking after yourself

Don't think you deceived

For a personal gain

Of depleting my emotional wealth

Yet here I lay in your path

I don't feel whole but I don't feel half

And all I want to do is understand

My love has been cauterized by the how's and why's

And a husband never known

To make share in a time they thought they owned

How did I ever buy into the falsity of your embrace

When you treat love like real estate?

What have you lost in the burst of the bubble?

I can't explain your reindeer games, your frosty maim

Like a child in the schoolyard

Chattering so as not to lose the regard

Of your friends who will choose and will pick you first

Or pick you last

Were you making sure that you had a match

Even if that meant seeing double?

I don't understand

I don't understand

I really believe

Like a child in a schoolyard

I don't understand

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