i could've saved that bird

The longer I wait, the harder it gets

The more I resist, the more I say yes

Uncovering trauma with innocent sex

Planning the worst, but hoping the best

The ones that are close, I push them away

When I'm feeling the strain, I get led astray

Caught between a rock and a hard place

The endless race, a cycling maze

Realities spiral, I saw the truth

I sunk through the floor, and fell into loops

I never feel whole, I'm missing a piece

I feel the hole when I'm searching for peace

You fill the hole with all that I seek

I can't control what I'm meant to see

I'm digging the grave for inevitable death

Pipe dreams of a future, I get out of this mess

The longer I wait, the harder it gets

The more I resist, the more I say yes

A bottle of Ben, and I saw the shadows

They think I'm a witch, I'll be sent to the gallows

A bottle of Hen, and the walls get narrow

Fuck this bitch, the water's too shallow

I saw a bird, on the side of the road

Light as a dove, and black as a crow

Broken back, with nowhere to go

I could've saved it, but my body just froze

Tears down my cheek, I call myself weak

I am the bird, silent cries from my beak

While I watch myself suffer, and do nothing to help

I search for some meaning, for what I can't tell