Trapped in My Mirror

There's no life in me I want to pursue

I know it's all over, my journey is through

My lens is all smoky and twisted with pain

It has become clear now that I struggle in vain

I no longer believe what they see in me

For my mirror is smoky as smoky can be

I can't look in my mirror for trapped there inside

Are the demons and ghosts that I cannot hide

I've lived in a glass cage that I've built for me

A cage that strong as any prison can be

The public's my lifeblood, such a wonderful curse

For I'm on display now for better or worse

I slipped into my mirror to change all I could see

To change all the things that I hated in me

I thought I could hide there away from the masses

Hiding my eyes behind rose-colored glasses

I paint on my mirror what I want you to see

When you look in my mirror, you'll never see me

I live in my mirror alone with my fear

And hope when you're looking you'll see nobody there

Like a bird in a cage, I'll sing for the viewer

I'll sing about life down here in the sewer

I'll sing about love and hearts that are broken

I'll sing about truth, but truth is not spoken

You think that you know me by the stories I tell

I'm trapped in my mirror, I'm trapped here in hell

I'll sing about life as you think it should be

You won't get a glimpse about what's hurting in me

I'll try to keep shiny this mirror of smoke

I'll try to repair it, though I know that it's broke

Each day is a struggle, I'm losing my will

The cancer inside me I know I can't kill

I'll look through my mirror and hope there's no light

I'll hide in my mirror and keep out of sight

My cancer is freedom, it's setting me free

It's eating the backing that's imprisoning me

My mirror is clear now, as clear as can be

My backing is gone now, at last I am free