Could be worse

Ok it could be worse

I could be in that bed dying

Funeral home all my family members crying

Yea it could be worse

I could be six feet in the dirt

Another picture on a shirt

Another heart to fucking hurt

And it should be I don't know dawg

Cause it could be

But I'm fucked up now

Bitch I'm fucked up ya

I want smiles up on yo face

Cause now I'm in a better place

Im probably drinking champagne

To go along with this steak

You know I'm keeping my cool

I'm probably rolling a J

I read about it somewhere

And its a beautiful place

But I ain't never really been

So not too much I could say

But if I ever do go

I hope them tears go away

Cause its just outta my hands

And its gone happen one day

You just gotta move on

I probably wasn't meant to stay

But I just been thinking about it

It got me fucked up

That's why I'm singing this shit

Don't go looking for answers

Asking them questions

Why it gotta be like

I could be broke

Laughed at and took for a joke

Hope

Only thing keep me afloat

Clothes

Same pair of socks on my toes

From the last week the past reek

I'm feigning for more

I been down so bad

I hate how I'm living

Mom's is out hustling

No food in the kitchen

Always be questioning

Why I'm in this position

I ain't the man for this mission nah

Now as you sit there on the floor

Losing feeling in both ya arms

You losing consciousness

You can't even think about who you are

You start regretting all decisions

That just led up to this moment

You start putting blame on others

But fuck it you gotta own it

And fuck it no point in living

Forgive me for all my sinning

I just feel like I'm wasting

The only life that I was given

I been feigning for ya love

And deep down I feel its missing

Yea these bright lights surround me

And I just feel my life slipping

You got me fucked up

And you got me tripping

And you got me wishing

That we never met

I feel so fucked up

Stuck in this position I lay down

And all the blood rush to my head