Peacekeeper

Phones thrown at floors, holes in the walls

Holding her so it won't hurt when she falls

Drown out the noise, sad angry voice in the night

Breaking up fights, playing the grown up

God, I can't wait to get out and go grow up

Cry in the pillow

Screaming at God to come find me

Oh to be just a kid

And not have to think about all of this

I always wished that I could save her

But I never wanted

I never wanted

To be the peacekeeper

Pinning up posters, my bedroom door

Still has leftovers from the night before

When my friends come over

Hope they won't see underneath them

Lie to their face, I don't wanna lose them

'Cause what if they think that I'm just too broken?

If I ever spoke it, I know that they'd run away

Oh to be just a kid

And not have to handle all of this

I always wished it would get better

But I never wanted

I never wanted

Oh, I never wanted, no

Oh, I never wanted, no

Oh, I never wanted this, no

And I never wanted to run

Being half scared to death

While I'm cursing the name

Loving under my breath

Keep relighting my life like a damp cigarette

I'm not there yet

I'm not there

And I never wanted to fear

That I'll always fall under

Fall into generations

Or fail as a mother

To strike like the lightning

Or sound like the thunder

It all falls down

I never wanted

I never wanted

Oh, I never wanted

To be the peacekeeper

My own apartment

Turn out the light

I think I'll have to get used to the quiet

No holes in the walls

Peace in my mind for the night

For the night