better than this

Aye

It's gotta be better than this

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Much better than the life that we love

Aye, Aye

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Than this

Days seem longer in the summer time

I done told these niggas that the summers mine

Niggas moving forward fast - we don't press rewind

So Ima need y'all to catch me if I don't fall In line

And I don't mean that shit like single file

And after five years a nigga single now

But even after all of this shit

Still love the mother of both of my kids

I still regret all the time that I miss

I still regret everything that I did

Apologies everything that I hid

And it's all because of a life I tried to live

I heard life is what ever that you make it

And once it's made it's impossible to change it nigga

Cause even if you manage to change

All the memories remain the same

I want it so bad in a strong way

I even considered doin it the wrong way

Brighter days seem outta sight in a long way

Until then nigga ima let this song play

Aye, Aye

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Than this

Nights seem longer then the winter time

A nigga broke so at times I miss dinner time

I ain't even trippin though, long as my babies eat

Long as I got my vape smoke then that's fine with me

I think I got my family all worried

I'm losing my sense of sight this shit is scary nigga

Better yet this shit blurry

I'm at the point where anything I do can hurt me

I pray to God that my vision don't desert me

A crazy man is the last thing that this Earth needs

And California just ain't giving me what I need

And when I cry it be feelin' like my eyes bleed

My little cousin told me I need to find peace

Buried his brother now I wonder if we find peace

Somebody tell me something better in this life please

Somebody tell me isomething better after life please

Aye, Aye

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Than this

Much better than the life that we love

Aye, Aye

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Than this

Aye, Aye, Look

Now have you ever felt a spirit transition into another dimension

My older brother put me in that position

I was lookin at a body that's stale

Another body that's frail

Another wound - prolly never gon' heal

Now this that same brother used to judo-flip me the yard

Same brother showed me really how to really play my cards

Same brother showed hard work from the jump

Can't front - me and him switchin' places all I want

I remember - December's with little heat

So we watching Boondocks in jackets and tube socks

Playing video games every night

Throwing rocks on Webb Street

And now I'm steady livin' in hell

Now how the fuck I'm 'sposed to live when my older brother gone

He had his life together - I was livin 'wrong

And even when it's quiet and I'm praying

And I'm crying for his Presence 9 times outta 9, I'm alone

Shit, it's been a minute since I seen your face

Or heard your voice

Or smelled your scent

And I ain't even talk to God cause I can't rejoice

I don't repent

I make the choice to often sin

I miss my dog, I miss my kin, I miss my boy

I miss my friend, the time we spent - Imma never get it

The book of your life came to a close

But I guess another story begins

I gotta take it in stride - cause every lesson applies

And every single tear I cried it eventually dried

Reminiscing on the times I was contemplating life

Now my brother is the reason that I'm staying alive

And that's ironic because I probably spent too many hours staring at pills

I'd probably be a goner is lookin' could really kill

And now I feel ridiculous - looking at my sisters

And my mother in The eyes thanking God they who I am healing with - uh

But I don't fuckin' get it

Man, Tevyn really gone I need fucking with it

Feelin' life was getting harder and I want to quit it

Man I swear to God in that fucking minute

He came to me

My brother came to me

It was almost like he sang to me

Yeah he sang to me

He gave his little brother advice

To take the drive and the mental combined

Engineer my blue print, and I can sketch the design

Investigate you inner spirits and the realm of my mind

Before I know it, I can fill a storage unit with finds

Play the game like a coach and I'll never resign

Be a bully in this bitch, ain't no need to be kind

You fuck around and act sweet, you gon end up behind

But play your lucky stars right and you might end up aligned

Cause you can really have it all - you gotta get up and grind

But that won't take away the pain - I'll keep that in mind

Cause hen I call my brothers name I just want a reply

I just really want him back, i ain't wanna goodbye

I tell you I don't know why I don't know why

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Much better than the life that we love

It's gotta be better than this

And I know it's gotta be better than this

It's gotta be better than this

Than this

I know, I know

It's gotta be better than this

Than this, yeah

Aye

I know

You know I had to do it again

I was gonna leave it out

Better than this