Petrichor

I said it's okay to go home

Leave me with my sins

I held your hand and watched you go

I lied

And we both know

I wish it was me who died

Long-ago

I stood in the crushing rain

Watched it dance from stone to grave

It never cared who you were

I bury my fingers

Through the earth

Just to feel you again

Do you remember what I said?

I'll see you again

You found your silence in the end

But the voices in my head never end

I sit here

Soaked in decay

Wishing the storm

Would wash me away

I put metal to skull

I'm ready to let go

The smell of Petrichor in the air

Takes me back

To when you still cared

I still see you through the rain

I exist to feel this pain

So breathe you in and break once more

You're gone

And all that's left is Petrichor

I've forgotten the sound of my own voice

Since I started talking to the rain

Every drop feels like a reason

To dig my grave a little deeper

Maybe I killed you

In some way

With all the things I didn't say

I wish you could stay

And I could take your place

I just want to say hello again

But I know I'm not brave

Just a slave

To every memory you gave

To every memory that makes me whole again

I scream inside

I'm not dead

But I don't feel alive

The smell of Petrichor in the air

Still takes me back to when you cared

Put a gun to my head

See if I care

I've fallen off the edge of despair

I breathe you in but there's no more

I can't go through anymore

You're gone

And all that's left is Petrichor

Do you remember what I said?