Letras
A door slams somewhere down the hall
My lungs forget how to breathe at all
Normal room, normal day
But something rips me far away
My chest locks up, my vision thins
Heart outruns the oxygen
Nothing here is breaking
But my body can't stop shaking
My mind says now, my body says then
Two different clocks won't sync again
It's happening again
Though nothing here is happening
My pulse outruns what I defend
A past I never chose
Replaying without end
It's happening again
A secret wave under my skin
I know I'm safe, but tell me when my body learns
This moment isn't then
No clear scene, no full rewind
Just a surge that hijacks my mind
Smell, a sound, a certain light
Flips a switch and kills the night
Hands go numb, the room goes wrong
Every second stretches long
People talk, their mouths all move
But I'm not there, I'm removed
I scan the door, the floor, the air
For threats that aren't but feel like they're there
It's happening again
My breath collapses inward
Then my muscles braced for impact
When there nothing here to crash against
It happening again
An old alarm with a faulty end
It rings for fires that don't exist
Still leaves my nervous system clenched
So I stay busy, keep the pace, fill the hours, dodge the place
Don't say the words, don't name the fear
Don't let the shaking surface here
Some days I'm blank, completely numb
Like I'm present but no air in my lungs
Some days the past floods through the door
Flood on the tiles, no higher floor
It's not drama, it's not a show
It's my own body, not letting go
When the wave is done, I'm wrecked and small
Like I survived a war, no one saw it all
I look around, just quiet air