Son of Abyss

Imagine if we all shared a secret

Maybe then we could connect in that space where we keep it

If you and I bleed and it's the same blood

Would I still need a reason to believe in your love?

I'm trying to stay ahead of all the developments

Got to acknowledge the Devil in a room full of elephants

And now I'm looking for an easy escape

Like open the window, I'm 'bout to leap to my faith

For real, I feel depleted

An ocean full of weeds, emotional fatigue

And maybe if I had a bag of money

I could be the crash test dummy quietly standing for something

I would love to get as fly as them

But I fell overboard, now I'm trying to swim

I'm still learning, but the water is burning

And the world keeps turning like it's not concerned, and

I can't believe I used to love you

You don't believe I used to love you

But who you gonna run to?

What happened to the people that you once knew?

I'm like, "hold up"

You looking at me like I'm supposed to know what to do

But when I see you come around

All I think about now is how I don't fuck with you

And even if I had a way to say to you how much I miss your kiss

And even on a perfect day I behave like I'm nervous of the risk

And even when I'm confident the consequence'll cost another wish

And even when it's obvious we're probably just lost in the abyss

I'm trying to breathe my way through it

Sink into the waves, let 'em move me, stay fluid

So many voices and inflections

Multiple choices and different directions

And even if I had the opportunity

I don't qualify to speak on behalf of the community

And I don't even know who that would be anymore

I lost track of the tracks, I stopped keeping the score

Or maybe I've been putting up my own walls

I don't return your phone calls

Got me floating and bobbing on top this pond

Full of problems we bought from these dishonest spokesmen

I kinda hope we turn it all into ash