Mess

I don't let

The absence of you hurt me anymore

But I used to

I thought you had made me whole

It was just a hole i tried to fill

Part of myself

I was trying so hard to kill

The mess i made of myself

I swept it under a rug

When I most needed help

Turned to you and not myself

Now that I'm deep cleaning

Becoming someone new

Someone I look up to

Doesn't stop me from loving you

It's filthy to miss dishes stacking up and putting

Water in the soap to delude the clean up

Bare hands and knees

Took stripping down to breathe

Cuz you pulled the rug from under me

And you exposed my bodies

The mess i made of myself

I swept it under the rug

When i most needed help

Turned to you and not myself

Now that I'm deep cleaning

Becoming someone new

Someone I look up to

Doesn't stop me from loving you

Loving you, loving you, loving you,

So damn bad

So damn bad

Don't worry

I'm cleaning up that

Cuz the mess of myself is long in the past right where you left