If I Lose You

So many things I want to tell you but I'm scared to write the song

I know we're physically together but inside I feel alone

And I know I'm always changing but I'm happy when you're home

And I can tell you're feeling pain see I can hear it in your tone

And I'm sorry that I hurt you even though it doesn't help

But If I lose you then I'll lose my soul and probably lose myself

And lately I've been looking at the cards that I've been dealt

I've been wishing they were hearts and I wasn't locked in a cell but it's whatever

I know you're feeling broken and I'm sorry

Apologize for my mistakes I know I'm never right

I'm wishing I'd forget about you every single morning

But I find myself in pain dreaming 'bout you every night

And it hurts me that I hurt you I thought that I would do better

I was caught up in the music it's stupid I feel this way

I'm numbing all my problems by writing you through this letter

And it probably doesn't change how I'm stuck outside in the rain

If I lose you now

Where would you go?

Would you love another?

Could you love another?

Would you be able to let me go?