Under Your Knife

I held your hand, withstanding your demands

Enchanted by the rapture that you promised me

Under your knife, deprived of normal life

I strived to find the meaning that would set me free

A broken promise in an ocean of mistakes

You'll reassure me that I'm happier this way

But I can't seem to forget

Each time you lied for profit

And it's making me nauseous

To hide your crimes of passion

Now every day's the same, can't will away

The pain that you've inflicted is a part of me

Praying for death, regrets are all I've kept

You've left me in the dark to writhe in agony

I never thought the cost of love once lost

Could rot me from the inside out in atrophy

I was so blind to signs of our demise

Realized nothing's alright but now it's far too late

I'm never honest when I tell you it's okay

There is no cure for us but I can take the pain

But I can't seem to forget

Each time you lied for profit

And it's making me nauseous

To hide your crimes of passion

A shattered trust, the ashes of what once was

A fairy tale with morals destined to fail

Through every truth my spirit sold

I've traded my heart's weight in gold

The scars run deep, haunt me in sleep

Forever drenched in your consequences

Drown the past, I'm fading fast

I've gotta find my way back now

I've gotta find my way back