Eulogy

I'm caught up in my feelings, I can't own 'em (yeah)

Protect me from these folks who keep on using me

I got love for all these people, I can't show them

If I confess my feelings, they goin' turn me to a eulogy

Got all these people acting 'round me like they know something

And my heart be playing tricks to make a fool of me

I know that I ain't been worth a damn that's right to no one

I look for love from folk who want nothing to do with me

All these problems, I watch my day go slower

Sell my pain when the pain runs over

And I hope I make it 'fore the pain takes over

I was hurt about that shit, but okay — that's over

'Cause it's been years since I seen my daddy

And I still won't cry on my momma's shoulder

My grandma died and I been all in, baby

I might thug with my cousins 'cause we all been soldiers

And how you goin' act? Like, okay — I'm back

I'm soft as a bitch when I play this back

I step in this bitch, I ain't goin' for nothing

I can't wait 'til they see like, "Okay, I'm that"

They goin' play in this bitch like I'm a young little ****

But I'm a young little **** that's on the map

I was too fucked up to put my pain on wax

How you goin' act? I'm okayin' that

I'm caught up in my feelings, I can't own 'em (yeah)

Protect me from these folks who keep on using me

I got love for all these people, I can't show them

If I confess my feelings, they goin' turn me to a eulogy

Got all these—

"It's Julien, AKA Mr. President, and you're locked in with The Bold Ones

We have in the building with us right now... TY. REESE WATTS."

"Of course, thank you for having me."

"So TY. REESE, tell us what it's like to have a number one album in the country

And break down to the fans the process of what it's like to have a number one album

Coming from someone like you?"

"Well..."

They telling me to "Grow up ****"

"What's da hold up ****?"

'Cause I'm a grown ass man but a young ass ****

I never been in the streets but was mugged up with you

Now they play my name like "Uh, I get ya"

I won't fall for nothing

You gotta stand up ****, when ya family's with you

It's either all or nothing

So you wanna press your issue? We press all our buttons

Don't play with me ****, I get the thug from my cousin

Woooooah! I just want a deal with you

Woooooah! She just want a real ****

Woooooah! Now I know how to deal with you

Woooooah!

I'm caught up in my feelings, I can't own 'em (yeah)

Protect me from these folks who keep on using me

I got love for all these people, I can't show them

If I confess my feelings, they goin' turn me to a eulogy

"Welcome back to another episode of Tap In Tuesdays with Enter The Skybox

We have a very special guest — TY. REESE is in the building!"

"Ooooh! Yes sir!"

"Man, how you doing my brother? Man, I'm glad to have you back in the Skybox

We see you doing big things. Man, how's everything goin' with the music?

We see you recently dropped a new album

Let's talk a little bit about the album, and what it took to put this project together

And how does it feel having another number one album?"

"Well? You just gotta listen."

I'm focused on up when I'm letting 'em in

I don't need no help like, "I got it, my friend"

I just took a loss when my feeling won't start up

I done painted my portrait I got it my kin

And since I came up, my name's been mentioned

Story of my life, I tell them pay attention

I started this shit at my granddad's house

I won't tell 'em about the part of my granny's sickness

The greatest of all time won't make no difference

I fell out with Janae, but okay — that's different

I felt it myself — okay, that's different

I lost Kim and Big Black, don't play my feelin'

I still feel a way my cousin died

Took in my pain when I'm on it now

And I still feel a way when I'm on it ****

And I still get hate from the other side

"Tyrese! When you get this message, can you please call me?

This is your Aunt Geraldine, and I need to talk to you homie. Bye."

"Tyrese, if you get this message — call your grandma in Washington DC

Where the hell are you? And what's up with you?

Every time I talk to your momma and ask her if she heard from you, she say no

You need to cut that shit out and call me."

"Like I really appreciate what you been doing with music. You're creating your own wave and your own lane and that's very important. Um and aside from that you just gotta good soul. You're very tapped in. To your energy's and how you treat people and your work ethic is crazy. So I only wish you the best and um yeah we locked in forever."

"I'm waiting for the album to drop. So I can use one of the songs on my intro and my outro. It's goin be some fire. Some fire!"

"Ain't it been a year since you know he dropped his first album? First coming out. First album. And what was the name? It was 'HIGHLIGHTS' yup. First album. 'HIGHLIGHTS' first time coming out and it was a whole year ago a full year. Wow! Wow and then. Just looking back he done dealt with so many hardships. So many ups and downs. So much trials and tribulations and making mistakes. Learning from them mistakes. You know doing better trying to do better. I mean at the end of the day we are young so it's like we supposed to go through our mistakes and mess ups and learn from them. You know nobody's perfect. We're all human at the end of the day. But one thing I know for sure is that he's going to persevere. Whatever he puts his mind to. Is going to work out for him. You know? I think he just needs to focus on healing from past trauma and you know past hurt and pain. Once he do that it's a wrap. Like whatever he put his mind to whatever he do it's goin work out for him. Watch!"

"Call me, Tyrese!"

"Unlike yall see I actually know the motherfucker. Yea his ass would walk around acting all high and mighty and shit. But a nigga didn't give a fuck about none of that music shit he was talmbout. You know cause one thing about a bird baby it always fly back to the stoop."

"Hol' up! Hol' up! Hol' up! What the fuck does that mean?"

"What it means is mind your goddamn business when **** is talking. I'll tell you what it means. Anyways one night I was at a party with this **** and shit. You know? I'm doing my thing. Getting my groove on. And hear this **** come in. Like he's Gods gift to Earth. So what I do?"

"And what do you do?"

"I walks up to the **** and I say. Excuse me my belligerent beautiful black brother but all that Kingsland Kingpen highlights SunnyMoon shit is out the window

Matter fact, I'ma have to ask you to leave before me and my partners

Have to whoop your ass like it's Def Comedy Jam or something."