Darkness

Depression

From lack of acceptance

I try to go to church pursue the act of repentance

Walk up to the pew proceeded to rap up the Reverend

But I'm rambling on I gotta wrap up this sentence

I take my time with insomnia writing rhymes

And I'm facing up all my problems and placing em in these line

But I cannot just walk up angrily facing them in the eyes

I'm just making these compromises thats bringing on my demise

I spend a lot of time driving down

This road in fucking silence I'm

Searching for the breaks

But I am getting fucking tired of trying

Spots are blind in my life and I can't decide if I can find

The psychological ripeness that I require to find the signs

Now fucking tell me I'm not right for crying

I see these struggles they bright and shine and they fucking treat me like I'm blind

So I resign don't wanna fight for crying out loud

I'm out now back pretending like the sights are fine

I got this darkness in my soul that no one knows cause I don't show

I got these problem in my mind and I can't seem to ever let em go

The more I try to walk away the more they wanna try and come close

And I proceed to let them in cause I can never seem to tell em no

Okay I'm sorry for spazzing

I just had to come get it off my chest

You call me bastard although you know I fucking tried my best

To find success all these silent tests

Are hardly a task that I am primed for yet

I try to set these goals but empty roads

I'm always met with those

These people they acting friendly pose

To stick you in the back all for the green just like a deadly Rose

I'm in these trendy clothes

And buying penny loafs

I drape my neck with gold

To try impress these fucking pretty hoes after it's over pretend

I'm better off but honestly they never know what actually happens inside my brain

I'm an addict I have to be having the fucking fame or else I'll go insane

I just really need em to know my name

See em around me with what I want and I really just wanna know the same