thepainleftover

My mind keeps replaying what my heart needs to heal

And if I shed tears it's like I'm paying debt for my grief

I waited so long for the future that it left me with no one in mine

And now there's a four letter word I'd love to forget

And it's not love or hate or numb or pain

It's your name

I held you close even when I had no space for you at all

Until I was suffocating you in May of 2022

And I might meet someone that gives me a reason to love again

But until then I'll love myself and not you

I learned about softness when you brought it out of me

By pouring my morning coffee

And I learned about love

When you anticipated all the little things that would make me happy

And I can't negotiate with life anyway but

If it takes half the time that I loved you to forget you then

I think it's an honest price to pay

Cause I loved the way it felt to wake up to next to you

But I've learned to love the way it feels to wake up next to no one

Cause with pain comes perspective and perspective comes from tragedy

So every time it hurts

I just think about how much better the story will be

So thank you

You gave all the pain left over some where to go