Letras
I've been closer
Feel like I've been farther
I want to bring it back but now it's over
And I've been up all night is it trauma
The way that I've been wishing I could call you
I wish I'm better but I'm not uh uh
Throw my emotions in the dump uh uh
I know it's time that I give it up now
But it's way harder than I thought now
I feel emotional
More like embarrassed
Wishing that there was a way to get close to you
But everything's changed
It rearranged
It turned all the ways that I knew it would
Predicting the future I guess it's a talent
I hate the fact that my predictions were valid
And when I'm saying it out loud I imagine
That maybe it'll all disappear like it's magic
And yes it is tragic
Everytime I think about it
I'm wishing this shit didn't happen
Always for bad and always for worse
I inherit entrapment
And that's what been happening
And that's what been happening yeah
I play in the middle like I am the center
You probably think I've been better than ever
People press on me like I am a pedal
I'm out of commission I need a new engine
Will you just sit down a moment and listen
Now that I'm back in this town I am crippling
Thinking bout what I had and I've been missing it
But you grew up and I know I missed it
I watched from a distance
I study his characteristics and I can see that he's not what you envisioned
That boy is a father but fathers a boy and I know I would've been better
Even though I'm a big stepper I'm not gonna step in
Being a step pops ain't ever in my agenda
Yeah
I've been closer
Feel like I've been farther
I want to bring it back but now it's over
And I've been up all night is it trauma
The way that I've been wishing I could call you
I wish I'm better but I'm not uh uh
Throw my emotions in the dump uh uh
I know it's time that I give it up now
But it's way harder than I thought now
And when you hear this song
Don't be offended
You got growing to do
Then you'll get what I'm saying
I was in your shoes once
And made bad decisions
I'm growing up now
Looking back and there's prices I'm paying
It's a debt weighing on me
It's putting up obstacles
You'd think I'm acrobatic
They way that I conquer em
I was a sheep in a heard
Now the leader of the team
It can be overwhelming
How tricky this can be
I'm thinking about us
Thinking bout when we were closer
Could've brought it back
Cause I'm back now but it's all over
And if I were to speak
Would it all fade away
If given the chance
Could you even look me in the face
Without tryna lie to me again
Without ripping my heart out again
You pushed me out to my wits end
And now I'm on my own again
We should've kept close
Or I should've went farther
Crazy that that little boy is a father