Renouncer

I fell in love with you

There was no reason to try

Though if you were, it was trying to love me

When I was trying to be worthy of your time

But we lied next to each other

I use all your tricks to make believe

Nature moves on after the winter ends

I wish I wasn't capable of loving anyone

I wish I had known I'd still be alone

Fucking with the time

Woke up and it was two again

I know that you didn't know

I need to know what drew you in

Barb the wire and throw in the lighter

Why can't I let you die this time

Knowing someone else was on the other line

While I was on hold outside the door

Shouldn't it feel better? It was just nature

But I would've traded the rights of my body

If you would've given me the rights

Of another last name

Fucking with each other (in our heads)

But I was pretending

(Just in case you were too)

It was just the instructions written out

An answer you knew what

You were supposed to do

I tried to deny that I could watch you

Give what I gave up with someone else

The bones of my knees touch just like

A hand and the collar of your bones

And it's like I'm beautiful

Like you, sitting on the floor

Feeling so aware of what I've lost

I wish I had long hair then

I wish I had the nerve to take the scissors

To date, the pictures

I wish I didn't mean it

I'll give you the copyrights

Pay the expense to roll the dice of miracles

To create a new life, I thought I found in

When I met you, you were reading"They both die at the end"

If I don't sleep tonight

I'll say"hi, how are you?"

But we won't talk like yesterday

And I don't want you the way

I needed you when you weren't there