Neglected

Changing my narratives

Re arranging my patterns and

Keeping intent

Still elite with the pen

Even tho

Back on that deep shit again

I just needed to vent

Im still continuing

But needed abit of space and time

In the continuum

To draw out the hate from inside

Move foward and stop remembering

Its sad

Its like iv grown immunity

Of what life use to be

To many tried using me in my past

But this is my life

You only know the half of what i write

It really aint for you to see

Only telling what i choose to be

Been keeping my distance

Not talking much about it

Or even speaking into my existence

The minds clouded

Feel like never is the healing done

Im still feeling numb

Yo im suprised that im still kicking

At times i couldnt care less

Or appear distressed

Guess iv learnt to deal with it

And bare the stress

But im there for this test

An anything life throws at it

For real my bros

I stick my neck out for

Like go go gadget still tho

Since a certain time In my life

Thats never gone a change

Grown from

Working its shined a light

No anxiety

I know im worth it

Know my kind of type and my range

Its in time that yall be finding that

That youll

Understand the smarter decisions

Patience

Its a part of the mission

Theres times when i know that

My minds been corrupt

Like a dam politician bruh

Im hungry but

Knowing that i lack

And cant engage like my

Transmissions stuck

Looking for a money tree

To lay down a picnic rug

Go on throw shade

I just pull the pin out

And throw back a grenade

An blow up the page

Like my visions fucked

Life is unexpected

Everything im doing

Got me feeling quite neglected

But as hard as it getting

I aint heading to the exit

The pain temporary

I wont let it get infectious