Shattered

I'm drifting aimlessly through a shattered dreamscape

In the early morning

While only half awake

My emotions hanging in front of me

Like film in a black room

Developing images

I can hear your voice like an echo in the next room

Just out of earshot

And I'm straining to catch the words

Hoping that they are for me

But knowing that it's probably just in my imagination

I'll try to be patient

I must be patient

It feels like I'm falling to pieces

Why couldn't I still live in denial?

There is pain in enlightenment

But at least if I'm in pain then I know I'm still alive

You've got my heart in a vice

But my head is a car crash

I will pay any price you ask

Just to hold you while I fall to pieces

I'm walking aimlessly under skies of thunder

It's anger a mirror for what I think of myself

I'm lost in the hope that you'll turn to me

But I know it's all just a fantasy

I'm biting my tongue

'Cause every time I talk it just turns to shit for me

I just want to scream

You mean everything to me

You'll be the death of me

What's the fucking point?

I'll smash my head against the wall

But all the bricks they never break

All that's left is a pain between my eyes

Splitting my skull

Time flows like sand around you holding my lifeline

Still an anchor in the storm while I'm lost in the wind

I don't want to be counterweight to your happiness

Will you hold me while I put the pieces back together?