Miserable

I've been far, so flawed

You've been so calm, so dear, sincere

We've been so close to losing all

Throw away what we had

To make desert, where we planted

Seeds of our future

I've been so lost, so worn

Strayed in my messy scars

Blind of my own sorrow, blind and eager of pain

You have been there, any tear, any breath

Any damned unsustainable time

Like a torch, like a stone, like a warm cairn

My steady strong shoreline

What a miserable song

What a lovely blue song

What a miserable, lovely blue tune

What a heartbreaking chant

What a lovely blue tune

What a regretful, sad lullaby

Fear, grimy tear, dust of years

Shattering in a whirling storm

Gloom, hungry wolf, tempting lure

inconvenient companion

Now I know, now I feel, that my heal

Is to be etched deep in your heart, unmarred

Blown into hush, barren to lush

So blind, so numb, I missed your glow for so long