It Won't Always Feel So Heavy

Tell me how you think I'm gonna move on from this

Cuz some of my thoughts are particularly venomous

I'm relying on your optimism to keep me sane

I've been making moves & you're calling them baby steps

To be honest, think that's overly generous

But I can't afford to think of it any other way

But what happens if I can't pull myself together?

I'm scared to death that I'll be this way, forever

I starve myself at every minor reminder of it

Don't even mean to anymore, I'm on just autopilot

I see it clearly, it's still vivid whenever I blink

I'm feeling faulty, so I'm hanging on to your words

When you tell me

'It won't always feel so heavy'

The feelings growing, I can feel it there in my chest

It won't be long until it tries to control my head

There's only so much more of this I can take

I wanna make it out

But I feel smaller now

So I'll bet it all on your promise

Don't you dare break that promise

Cos what happens if I can't pull myself together?

I swear that I don't wanna be this way, forever

I starve myself at every minor reminder of it

Don't even mean to anymore, I'm on just autopilot

I see it clearly, it's still vivid whenever I blink

I'm feeling faulty, so I'm hanging on to your words

When you tell me

'It won't always feel so heavy'

They say I've got the thing the soldiers come back from the war with

That feels too much for me, I gotta wrap my head around it

The battle ruined me, and I can't change the fact it happened

But I'll be damned to give the memory that same satisfaction

I've starved myself at every minor reminder of it

But I don't need to anymore, switch off the autopilot

I see it clearly, there's a future I wanna live

I'll feel more like me

Now I think I understand

When you tell me

'It won't always feel so heavy'