Refraction

I was considering the infinite (nothing) nothing

That sat at the side of my bed on death

(Death) and then it occurred to me

Simply the fact that I existed was an anomaly

The only true reality was the void

And I was a temporary madness, dreamt up by nothing

(The void, the void, the void, by nothing)

(The void, the void, the void, dreamt up by nothing)

(Panic, panic, panic, panic, panic)

And then came the panic

And what was making me panic was the fact that I existed

(That I existed, the fact that I existed)

The only respite was sleep

(Sleep, sleep, sleep)

My existence, my reality, was hell

(My reality, my reality, my reality)

After about a month, my neighbour had observed my behaviour

And took me to the hospital

It was the 29th of January, 1997

I was 21 years old

Monomania

Monomania

It was like I'd opened my eyes for the first time

I couldn't understand anything, and

And what the fuck is this reality, this world?

What am I?

What the fuck am I?