This Fever I Have

Drink three quarts of water

Sleep it off or numb it

Pain is temporary

What's not is if you suffer

I wanted a teacher

To guide me through this planet

I alone felt stupid

I was a disaster

This fever I have

Is lasting a while

I'm not a good patient

And thinking takes me nowhere

I took a big leap to find

A new way to be in life

I fell in the trenches

And now everything is different

Nothing worse than boredom

An air of discomfort

Trickles down my spirit

I can't stand this feeling

I wanted a teacher

To give me the right answers

I alone felt worthless

I was going hungry

In this space of time I have

How will I feel good at last

It's not the place nor the things

But rather who is with me

I was uninspired, stuck

Feeling I was in a rut

He was such a great man

But I just didn't feel right.