Letras
It's like everything I do, I just fuck up
I touch your arm just to see it crumble to dust
And every time I just get a little bit closer
I try to reach out, but the abyss just sinks its claws a bit lower
'Cause I'm ungrateful, yeah, for what I have
Yeah, I am hateful to me, myself, and I; it's the reason I'm unstable
But that is fine; I've accepted who I am
Just to sink into this hell where I'll just go through with the plan
Just to kill myself—yeah, I'll show them
The only person it will show is me, that I was just a coward
Nothing more, nothing less
I'll take the fall, so I'll just end up in a fucking mess
I'll just tie me up with rosaries to take me to the church, yeah
Put my head underwater, say it's gonna hurt
As you push your nails into my hands and hang me from your cross
I'll become the fucking martyr as you hail me with the rock
As it hits my temple, starts to bleed, and everything's a blur
Swear I'm seeing double vision 'cause your faces start to lurk
In the walls of the absence of shadows I live in
A hundred eyes just cover me in words and say that they'll begin
With the carving of my gut and taking out the organs
Leave me here in pain and say you'll be back in the morning
But you're not; it's just your reflection that just echoes
In my thoughts
Pulling back the curtains just to feel your love is gone
So what's the point of this when every day is misery?
Your spine's fucked; degeneration shows through in the history
Will I be okay? Can I still move with bolts up in my spine?
Will the pain be recurring? Will I still lose track of time?
Feel the exit start to vibrate; it's crawling at my mind
Like the option's fucking there; I guess you won't do it this time
Just another fucking coward, yeah, you know that I am scared
Of where I am going after death—will you still find me there?
What if life doesn't exist after death?
What happens to the anger harbored in my chest?
'Cause I've just held on to this hatred for too long
And every night you'll hear me burning in these songs