Fuck Your Truth

You pulled me in close just to disappear

Said you weren't ready, still kept me near

Late-night promises, daylight lies

You'd go cold every time I asked you why

I blamed myself, thought I was too much

You called it "space," I called it love

I twisted my needs till they fit your rules

Didn't see then-I was just a fool

Every pull away fucked with my head

Fight-or-flight every text you read

I called it chemistry, called it fate

But it was trauma keeping me like bait

Should've been meaner, yeah honestly-fuck you

I loved you for real, you just used me like a tool

You weren't worth the chaos, weren't worth all the doubt

I wish I knew from day one what you were about

I bent till I broke just to keep you around

You fed off my love, then you let me down

I should've been colder, I should've walked out

But now I see clear what you're really about

You weren't worth all the chaos, the panic, the doubt

You liked me best when I needed you

When I went quiet, when I felt used

You'd show up just enough to stay

Then vanish the second things felt real

I confused the highs for something deep

Didn't know love ain't supposed to bleed

I was addicted to proving my worth

While you avoided doing the work

I learned your distance lit my fuse

My nervous system stuck on you

I begged for crumbs like that was love

God, I deserved so much more than us

Should've been meaner, yeah honestly-fuck you

I loved you for real, you just used me like a tool

You weren't worth the chaos, weren't worth all the doubt

I wish I knew from day one what you were about

I bent till I broke just to keep you around

You fed off my love, then you let me down

I should've been colder, I should've walked out

But now I see clear what you're really about

You weren't worth all the chaos, the panic, the doubt

It wasn't love, it was survival

Wounds recognizing wounds on arrival

You felt like home, but homes don't hurt

Homes don't make you feel less first

I stayed 'cause leaving felt like death

But losing me didn't cost you shit

Now I'm detoxing every trace of you

No contact, no access-fuck your truth

I don't miss you

I miss who I was before I shrank

Should've been meaner, honestly-fuck you

I loved you for real, you just used me like a tool

You weren't worth the chaos, weren't worth all the doubt

I wish I knew from day one what you were about

I bent till I broke just to keep you around

You fed off my love, then you let me down

I should've been colder, I should've walked out

But now I see clear what you're really about

You weren't worth all the chaos, the panic, the doubt

I didn't lose you

I found myself

And that's the part

You'll never have