Mistakes I Made

See I can't even sleep

But I've still been seeing my dreams

I was puffing since a youngin, I was fiending for the weed

Always bluffed when I was loving cause I saw what's in between

All that love and trust, love is nothing, needed it but I'd leave

Thirteen, sneaking out, creeping through them leaves

Had no mercy, breathing pounds, heating through the tree

Treated mum worsely, I told her to just leave me be

I wasn't there for her, so why would she there be for me?

I wish I took it back, and started living carefully

I nearly ended like my Grandpa, sorry Trevor P

I overdosed and still went ghost, said no to therapy

Mum I hope you know, I'm getting sober please just bare with me

Lost my inner child, never let him grow

Never let him have a childhood, his only breath was smoke

That little man was styled good, in his head he had hope

But then he lost his hope when he realised his friends were foes

But don't you listen to all of the dumb mistakes I made

You can find happiness in other shit, not just blazing eighths

Life gets better and better, when with love you replace your pain

Cause relying on a substance to love you is the greatest pain

Love your body, please don't cut and hate your veins

Just love somebody, love will take your pain away

And trust somebody you know and share great mistakes

That you made, don't bottle it with bottles and you'll escape your fate

See life is a road

Sometimes it takes a turn and you don't like where it goes

You wanna die alone with a knife by your throat

Cause you think about the tunnel and how the light never shows

That light will come eventually, you're rightfully owed

But how could it find you if you just only hide behind smoke

You got to take your blazing flames away and fight for your hope

It's not your lighter it's your mind that'll lighten your road

So don't try to ever tighten a rope

No one wants to see you lifeless my bro

You can get through what you're going through, or bothers you

Cause I'm always on your side of the road

I've seen to many fall to an ex

Then mothers grieving hearing calls that their child is dead

Crying on the phone saying "he could've fought his stress"

But they couldn't be saved cause they thought they were caught in the depths

Of love, abuse, and all that's in between

It's tough to lose your mental as a teen

But trust me dude, there's nothing I ain't seen

Especially not a kid who made it out and got clean

I know that it's confusing

A life of sadness, madness with substance abusing

There's better out there, you can't stay refusing

To catch a win in life you just got to be used to losing

You are worth it, you're not useless

You are perfect, anyone could prove it

Your life is worth it, please just don't abuse it

If you don't got someone to live for, please just live for Lu$if

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