Thoughts Behind a Smile

Dear friends and relatives

Sorry it came to this

I've been having fantasies about what dying truly is

Manufacture elements of my story, I insist

Make believe that I was something more

And what really throws me off the bridge is

Nothing turns out right

For if they did then I would be with you

And what wraps it all around my neck

You're only gonna find

Between the lines of my last letter

All my friends with benefits

Never wanted to be my friend

I've blurred lines and cut ties

Got no one in the end

To all the free degenerates

Saying better's around the bend

Oh, don't you think I've waited long enough

And what really throws me off the bridge is

Nothing turns out right

For if they did, then I would be with you

And what wraps it all around my neck

You're only gonna find

Between the lines of my last letter

And what really throws me off the bridge

When nothing turns out right is

If they did, then I would be with you, oh you

And what wraps it all around my neck

You're only gonna find

Between the lines of my last letter

When the bright light comes for me

I'll say where have you been all my life

And when the reaper comforts me

The only one around the day I die