Claustrophobia

Tear apart my effigy

A sacrifice to dull the pain

Of what you'll call my treachery

Holding out for me to change

Now I am tied to this fate

I'm crushed by the weight

That's holding down my chest

Each breath I take

Leaves me burdened

Just motionless

I spent a month

Searching for myself

But now the face I see

Is someone else

Tear apart my effigy

Limb from limb just throw it down

Discarding my memory

I'm not worth remembering

And no matter the steps that I take

I'm always falling further

(Into the dark)

I cannot escape my fate

I'm crushed by the weight

That's holding down my chest

Each breath I take

Leaves me burdened

Just motionless

And I'll confess that I'm a mess

I fucked it up

But I'm not the only one that's made mistakes

It's gone past what my heart can take

I'm drowning in the wake

This wasn't part of the missive

A line in the script that I don't want to see

I can't control these invasive thoughts

My needs and wants

It's not my fault they don't align with you

And I don't hate you

So why does this feel like it's goodbye?

Your faith in me is broken

A misplaced ghost

I'm crushed by the weight

That's holding down my chest

Each breath I take

Leaves me burdened

Just motionless

And I'll confess that I'm a mess

I fucked it up

But I'm not the only one that's made mistakes

It's gone past what my heart can take

I'm drowning in the wake