This Isn't Who We Are

Got me up all night, drinking this liquor, stupid I know

All the things that we've been through, I'm trying to get through, moving on slow

My head above the waters, it's harder than it seems

And I can't take it any longer, I'm starting to feel weak

It's been weeks since I last saw you, I should've tried but didn't bother

Ego got the best of me but I should be a lot stronger

I'm trying to move onward, 'cause it's no longer

Now I don't got her, I keep thinkin 'bout

I should've called her and stopped her from drifting away

Seconds to days, regretting mistakes

I'm missing your face and when you would laugh

Memories we had but it's in the past

I wish it'd be reversed, I'd give you everything you deserve

Life's becoming a blur, love is something you can't reimburse

Swimming in the deep end, reality's starting to seep in

There's nothing like us, you're the one I wanted to be with

There's no one I can relate to and life's becoming a plateful

The love is gone and maybe it'd be easier to hate you

You say that you don't care, you don't wanna deal with me

You pushed me away but baby I'm not your enemy

I don't wanna go there, I hate when you pressure me

'Cause baby one day I won't have any more energy

I'm sorry for all the fights and all of the lonely nights

But everything you're doing to me ain't right

I'm sorry we fell apart, can we just go back to the start

I hate how we've been, this isn't who we are, who we are no

I'm chasing after a soul I feel like I sold, where did it go

I should've played my role, keep it controlled, where did I go

I can't find myself

I'm living so lost and where is my cause

I'm trying to do well

This love doesn't cost but I'm so exhausted

Please take the pain away, nothing could save the day

I can't complain, I need to make a change

And I tried erasing your name away

How does a love so amazing just fade away

It's been overdue for awhile

I should hit you up and see what's been up, how you doing right now