Sabotage

I know what rock bottom looks like, because I've decorated it

I mean, repeatedly, believe me, every promise that I've broken still is ringing in my ears

I'm so tired of being a lesson that never becomes the proof

Got nothing left to burn, but my hands still smell like smoke

I'd love to tell you I'm okay, but we're way past that, right

I'm not the only one who's been here, am I?

Rock bottom's got a guest list tonight

I'm my own worst enemy

I complicate everything

Light the match and watch it fade

Never do I learn

I sabotage, I sabotage

I'm the rise and the sudden fall

I sabotage, I sabotage

I let it go before I fall

I've burned every bridge that ever mattered

Then I wonder why I'm standing here alone

Fight my own nature like a full-time job

Some days my nature beats me home

I don't sabotage because I'm broken

I sabotage because broken's all I know

Built something good and brought it down

Couldn't believe it was mine to hold

The people that I love have watched me cycle

Through the same wreck, same car, same road

The only no I can't survive is the one I wrote myself

And I'm done, I'm done, I'm done writing them

I'm my own worst enemy

I complicate everything

Light the match and watch it fade

Never do I learn

I sabotage, I sabotage

I'm the rise and the sudden fall

I sabotage, I sabotage

I let it go before I fall

I'm not asking for a clean slate

Just the guts to stop the mess I've made

Don't want the fairy tale

Just to stop flinching when something good stays

Every bridge I burned, I'm out here

Rebuilding with my weary hands

My worst enemy knows my coffee order, knows my face

Hell, she is my face

I fought hard against my own healing

And the things that left me in this place

But I made a promise to myself