Anxiety

Another day, same weight on my chest,

Eyes open, mind already a mess.

Checking my pulse like it might confess

How close I am to losing rest.

I pace the floor like it's therapy,

Overthinking feels like clarity.

People say "just trust, it's meant to be,"

But they don't live inside of me.

I pray soft but the words get stuck,

Faith feels small when the noise erupts.

Every thought's a loaded gun,

Pull the trigger - I'm the one.

I tell myself it's just a wave,

But sometimes faith can't feel brave.

Still I whisper through the fear,

"Hashem, are You still here?"

And the room gets quiet again,

Like You're breathing beneath my skin.

Breathe in, breathe out -

I'm not okay, but I'm allowed.

You never said the storm won't shout,

You just promised You'd be around.

Breathe in, breathe out -

I'm finding peace inside the sound.

It's not gone, but it's slowing down,

Yeah, You're still holding me now.

I keep calm so they don't know,

What it's like when my chest won't slow.

Laugh it off, make a joke or two,

Anything to hide the view.

My friends say, "You're strong, you got this fight."

But strength ain't peace, and I'm not right.

My mind's a maze with no end in sight,

I talk to You almost every night.

It's strange how pain can make me real,

When nothing else could make me kneel.

And maybe that's how You reveal

The truth I never learned to feel.

You don't answer loud or fast,

You just stay - and that lasts.

And when the darkness pulls me down,

You're the pulse that keeps me found.

Breathe in, breathe out -

I'm not okay, but I'm allowed.

You never said the storm won't shout,

You just promised You'd be around.

Breathe in, breathe out -

I'm finding peace inside the sound.