Trying to look past
The dust inside panes of the back door
To see a soul inside
Where I don't know if there is one anymore
There used to be a time
This house was full of light
Everybody wanted in
And maybe be just fine
But time threw its fate, broke the glass
And stained the rug like red champagne
But champagne turned to pain
And the stain was just a glimpse back
To the way it used to be
B'fore it broke me
I was watching the rain roll down
My dirty backdoor glass
Or was it just tears?
A blanket hid my head from
The monsters or was I
Scared of something else?
I would go run way out back
To sit beneath and weep
With the willow trees
But they never cried back
I was itching for a response
Cause nobody else seemed like they would
No matter how I tried
I was terrified
Trapped inside that house
And it owned me
I was standing there for hours
Looking through the glass
Into my life
Of what I once had
I'm washing out my past
And the memories that stained my mind
Like that old rug
I'm picking up the shards
Brittle as my heart
Clearer than my eyes
Who now have a new start
As I begin to walk away
The black night sky is lighter than
What fills the den
Memories of what has been
The wretched loneliness inside
The wicked depth of silence floods the rooms
They once spoke to me
All the willows have shed their tears
And I've moved on with no more fears
It's over now