Living Proof

Closed off myself, I try not to be a burden, internalizing things that don't need to see the light of day,

When I'd rather keep them at bay

Where words would fail, even my eyes won't tell you how heavy inside the things that were forced to brew,

And pay their dues, all the things that I blew, and all the things that kept me blue, who fuckin' knew?

Ohh, but, what I want, and what I do, and what I say,

I did it for me, for those behind me, paved the way,

I face lots of challenges they faced me day to day,

But all in a day's work for me, they got some shit to say

No rhyme or reason as to why my mental went down the line,

In and out of seasons were the days where I could say I felt "fine"

were at the end of the line, and my fight ran out of time

But they said they're "sorry for the lies",

They're "happy for the love",

They're "grateful for the time and all of the above",

And I knew my time was up, it's time to move along, yeah these odds are stacked against me, but I gotta prove 'em wrong

I'm thankful for the sunshine, and thankful for the rain, 'cause when it's time to smile through the tears and all the fuckin' pain,

I'll lift my head up high above the ashes that I rose from,

Dust off the hate because they really thought they did sum'

(I am)

I am Living Proof of "wrong place and time",

|A phoenix misunderstood from thousands of past lives,

And when you decide to sit back, and watch me burn,

Better's what I deserve

I'm living proof of the battles that be invisible,

Living proof of the wars you don't think winnable,

A wounded veteran haunted by a ghost of the past,

And the long shadow it cast

I think that, and I ponderI wish that, and I understand,It's not "all in my head"

I sit back, and I wander, I get that, and I understand it's something I can mend

Lookin' at the mirror, it knows what i've been through, (Knows what I've been through)

I've spread my wings, proof of how I know I flew,

I don't know where to turn when all the looks I get are stern,

Thinkin' to myself: "is this really what I've earned?"

I can't turn back, I know why I'm here,

I'm bravin' storms, be-facin' all my fears,

Standin' tall against the rain runnin' down my back,

To water the flowers i know i used to lack

'Cause I am Living Proof of wounds healed into scars,

My strength bestowed on me, written long ago, in the stars

And when you look up, don't just remember me,

It's where i'm meant to be

I'm living proof of leaving the past, and moving on

Destined to be, just like the sun is to rise at dawn

The sea won't have me, 'cause I know it's my turn (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yay-yeah)

I won't go up and burn(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yay-yeah)

Was stuck out at sea, but now, i can see the shore,

Could this really be what I needed before?

Risen from the ashes, now I see an open door,

An echo in the flames is just a memory off the floor