The Year B4 2024

Thinking 'bout times that I wish that I could go back, rewind - living my best

'99, I won't having no stress

Barely knew how to get up them steps

Life's hard when you settling debts

And karma a bitch who ain't cashing a check

Call my Aunt Sandra and tell her I'm sorry

That I still ain't able to make it there yet

Contemplate on how I'm walking in life

I don't know 'bout my daughter or wife

Or son - but God, I hope they be aight

I don't know who to call for advice

Fuck it, I'ma prolly call her tonight

Or maybe it's better I call it a night

Heaven or hell is the question I have in my dreams

Every time that I walk through the light

It's dimming me

Girl, you know that I vibe with your energy

And I hate how you used to be friend to me

Now we go tit for tat like we enemies

Not gon' lie - this year prolly the end of me

I'm not the guy I pretend to be

And I think that I noticed a change in my life

From the day I had bumped into-

Last year - why was life so hard?

Fuck it, 'cause I never thought we'd get this far

Last year - I lost my drive

I forgot that my peers see me like a star

Last year - if you asked me where I'd be in a year

Swear to God it wouldn't be this part

But last year - I ain't have to make a choice

With two women in my heart, man, this shit so hard

I'm in a struggle within myself

We all know I'd rather kill myself than hurt you

I have no fear of death, I'm feeling so feelingless

And that's the most hurtful

I'm getting numb to the pain - my niggas had died

And I'm still alive, it's hurtful

Both of them niggas had daughters

And I'm feeling sorrow for them - they'd never desert you

I got the girl of my dreams - it's crazy

I never felt in my heart I deserve you

I can't even make up my mind

I'm wasting the time of two women who niggas would worship

One of 'em perfect in life, one perfect for me