I Made You

I made you when I had no one

Painted rage on bloody keys

You were born from isolation

Not the version they now see

They scream your name like you're some god

But you were just a way to breathe

Now you're louder than my heartbeat

And I can't fucking sleep

I thought you'd save me from the silence

But you demand more than you give

You're fuel and fire, mask and burden

You made me feel, then made me live

But now the pressure's in my chest again

And I flinch at every stream

I built you to survive the dark

Now you're haunting all my dreams

Maybe I need you

But you don't need me

You're the angel

And I'm just the body

I gave you my pain

You gave me your name

But I don't know

If I'll ever be the same

Knowing what I could have been

They call me you like I'm a shell

Like I was nothing 'til you rose

But I remember writing lyrics on the floor

With no one close

You were mine, you were my outlet

Not a brand they could adore

Now you sell what I once felt

And I'm not sure anymore

What if I let go?

Would you vanish or survive?

Would the silence come back louder?

If I pushed you to the side?

I wanted art, not war

I wanted breath, not a stage

But you're my frankenstein creation

And I can't put you back in the cage

Maybe I need you

But you don't need me

You're the angel

And I'm just the body

I gave you my pain

You gave me your name

But I don't know

If I'll ever be the same

Knowing what I could have been

You called it jealousy, but truth be told

I was just scared to let them see my soul