Old Life

You must hate me by now

You won't see me again

But I look nothing like I did back then

I know you heard all about how hard it's been

The stories when they reached you

Did the ground shake? Did they leave you

Hoping that you would've been there

Thinking, did I need you?

And when I was in Rexdale for that viewing

You would text well, thousand times, you made me care

I wonder if that's still there

I'm not yours

But there's a part of your life that is mine

And there's a part of my life that you hide

I look back at '09 when my street was a gold mine

When you were not my old life

You walked through my home as I folded my clothes

You asked 'bout my fears as you stared out the window

And I told you it all, I told you too much

I shared all my wrongs, are you holding them up now?

All of the bodies, all of the crimes

All of those lives, all that's at stake

At least return, make me believe

Those secrets are safe with you

My mother was sick, tell me you prayed

Like I used to pray with you

I'm not yours

But there's a part of your life that is mine

And there's a part of my life that you hide

I look back at '09 when my street was a gold mine

When you were not my old life