synthetic

I've been drinking sunlight from a screen

Chasing echoes in dopamine

You were lightning in my blood

Now it's just sugar, just a flood

I try on strangers like perfume

Scroll through hearts in empty rooms

Everything I touch is dull

Since you stopped lighting me up full

I kiss with hollow breath

I laugh like it means less

I smile like a reflex

But none of it rewires the mess

You were serotonin, clean and wild

Oxytocin, summer child

Now I'm building love from plastic sparks

Trying to fill a heart-shaped mark

But nothing hits the same, not even close

I'm just tracing shadows, chasing ghosts

You were lightning

This is static

You were magic

This is habit

I mix my highs with second-best

Take shallow sleep, call it rest

I take what warmth I can pretend

But nothing reaches where you've been

I laugh like I'm in on the joke

But joy without you always chokes

And everyone feels like a blur

Like I'm in love, but not with her

I run through echoes now

Each touch is disallowed

I fake it, but I know how

It felt to need you like I need now

You were serotonin, sharp and pure

A kind of hurt I would endure

Now I build from neon, cheap and bright

But it burns too cold, it's never right

Nothing fills the shape you made

No matter how much noise I trade

You were lightning

This is static

You were magic

This is habit

I'd rather feel the ache of you

Than be numb with someone new

Every smile is counterfeit

Every touch just fakes the hit

I can't replace what wasn't real

It was better than anything I still feel

You were serotonin, fierce and true

Now I mainline songs that sound like you