Still Itch Sometimes

(Intro)

Ten years dry

But that voice? Still in the back of my mind

Ain't touched shit, but I still itch sometimes

Still dream of a line like it's Valentine's

(Verse 1)

Drove past my old spot, stomach started twistin'

Same trap house, same ghost in the kitchen

Ain't no dope in my veins, but my brain still fiends

Body sayin' "no," but my past still screams

Seen a bent—up spoon in a gas station lot

Thought, "Damn I remember that burnin' spot"

That first rush, that dirt—high flight

Like God kissed me then slapped me in the same night

I ain't proud of these flashbacks, but I won't lie

I'd be a fool to pretend I don't still wanna get high

Not every day — but enough to make me scared

Enough to make me pray and not care who's there

(Chorus)

Still itch sometimes, though I walk the line

Still hear the devil hummin' lullabies

I ain't touched the flame, but I miss the heat

I'm clean but temptation still taps my feet

Still itch sometimes — like phantom pain

Like I lost a limb, but it still remains

Truth is recovery ain't sweet

It's a war inside where I still taste defeat

(Verse 2)

Got a job now, got a bed, got peace

But I still get that tingle when the storm don't cease

Like when the bills stack, or my girl starts cryin'

I hear that old whisper sayin' "Try it one time"

I toss and turn, fight the urge

Write these verses so I don't swerve

I tell myself I'm stronger now

But my shadow know how to track me down

Old friends call, say they back on it

I hang up quick, but my heart stay haunted

You can take the needle out the flesh and bone

But it leaves a trail that leads straight home

(Bridge)

I see kids on the corner, eyes lookin' fried

And I wanna pull over, tell ‘em "Don't ride"

But I feel like a hypocrite, savin' with lies

‘Cause I'd still sell my soul for one more high

(Final Chorus – Slowed, Gritty)

Still itch sometimes, I ain't immune

Got a prayer on my lips and a past in my room

This ain't a cure — it's a leash on the beast

And some days I swear that chain get weak

Still itch sometimes still hear that call

But I'm fightin' like hell not to fall

So if you feel that too, don't be ashamed

Just remember the cost behind the flame

(Outro – Spoken / Raw)

Yeah I'm clean

But don't mistake that for healed

'Cause I still itch sometimes

And I probably always will