Текст песни
She used me for my-, she used me for my-
She used me for my beating heart
'Cause I put all my-, 'cause I put all my-
'Cause I put all my love in her scars
Wasn't fed love on a silver spoon, so I learned to lick it off knives
Pain, spit on my cloths, I made a mess every time
Do I deserve a home if being alone is what I accept?
Depressed and unwanted feelings
Shoes scattered from neglect, mine never fit others
I pledge to make you feel better, purple storms keep me alert
Know we at war, a lot of bodies in the dirt
Graveyard, be the richest place all on earth
Ideas, plans, art, that never saw the surface, or purpose
Faces on shirts that forgot to smile
I understand some people's pain might just last a while
Maybe flying gave you freedom, maybe trying gave you wisdom
Maybe lying gave you rest, maybe those long years are my compass?
Maybe times that were hard, they were content?
Don't speak on my name without the context
All the nights sleeping out, I felt abandoned
All the moments I kept my head up for the season
Threw me out, and hurt my soul for no reason
Only thing, if I'm honest, was I needed
Was your (beating heart), yeah
I only saw one way to save me
CDs, IG, playlists, and day shifts
They don't wanna see me fall far apart from the tree
They don't wanna hear it, but it's really just me
I'm a living lesson of failed accountability
I guess all the bad things got to me
It made me do a lot of bad things to a lot of bad people
So I sum it up as equal, so I always had a pedal
On the gas and a puddle on the ground
Living through the shallow, I don't wanna show how
Where I came from, whoever I remember now
Never had much, never came back from the numb
All these years go by, turned to goodbyes
I remember the times, now I don't feel surprised
Somebody I know, somebody I don't
Somebody I won't trust
Pulling back the covers over somebody you loved