Goodbye Again

There's a silence in my voice I can't ignore And I've run from it too many times before

I look fine when I'm standing in the light But I've buried every scream behind my eyes

They all think I'm doing fine these days But I've been folding and just faking grace

And I can't hold myself up anymore I don't want saving just an unlocked door

I say I'm good like it's a line But I can't even tell myself I'm fine

So I say goodbye again, though I never really leave I come back to the mirror where I can't quite breathe

And I don't ask for help, but I don't want the pain I just fall into the quiet like it knows my name

I would bleed just to feel something real But I shut myself out, and it's goodbye again

I've been lighting up to dull the sound Trying to hold my pieces to the ground

There's ink on pages that no one's ever seen Full of reasons I keep hiding what I mean

It was 6.15, and I couldn't feel a thing Just the echo of a silence thick and mean

And no one knew the war inside my chest So I wrote another poem, took another breath

I said I'm fine with half a smile But I've been breaking quietly for miles

So I say goodbye again, every time I slip Like I'm standing on the edge and losing grip

I don't cry anymore, but I still feel the sting Of all the things I never say and never sing

I would scream if it meant I could stay But I drift, and it's goodbye again

I've been searching for my angels But they're getting hard to find

So I drown out all the voices Just to feel like I'm alive

And I laugh at my reflection Like it's someone I once knew

But the truth is in the silence I've been saying goodbye to you

Goodbye again, and it's me I'm leaving Pieces on the floor

I don't know who I believe in I would trade all the numbness for pain

Just to know that I'm still here Not goodbye again

Goodbye again Goodbye again

But I'm still here I'm still here

Even when I disappear