The Days I Didn t Live

I woke up in a silence that I didn't recognize

The world kept moving forward while I lived behind my eyes

I filled my days with nowhere, drifting miles from who I was

Pretending that tomorrow would replace the things I lost

I wore routine like armor

But it kept me far from life

These are the days I didn't live

The mornings I let disappear

The nights I spent avoiding feeling

Anything that cut too deep

These are the days I didn't live

The dreams I left beneath the surface

Now I see how time keeps running

Even when you're fast asleep

I watched the seasons changing through a window in my chest

A life on quiet autopilot, thinking numbness was my rest

But every moment wasted now returns to me again

A reel of all the chances I could take but never did

I thought that being careful

Would somehow make me whole

These are the days I didn't live

The mornings I let disappear

The nights I spent avoiding feeling

Anything that cut too deep

These are the days I didn't live

The dreams I left beneath the surface

Now I see how time keeps running

Even when you're fast asleep

If I could shake the version

Of myself that stayed so still

I'd tell him there is courage

In the fear you choose to feel

These are the days I didn't live

But I won't lose the ones that follow

I'll breathe the air I kept resisting

Let the colors pull me in

These are the days I didn't live

But I won't spend the last in hiding

Time is only worth its heartbeat

If you let your life begin