Текст песни
See I been feeling like I'm riding solo
Even when you is around
And it isn't 'bout you, no
I know that you hold me down
'Cause even when I'm with my crew, oh
I been feeling like I'm by myself
And it's been this way for too damn long
Too long and I'm trynna figure out
Why do I feel so alone
When I am not on my own
Huh
I don't look in the mirror too long
'Cause I see all the time that has gone
Huh
Why do I stay in my zone
Is it because I fear the unknown
Hm
Am I too weak to hold on
Or am I too strong to let go
Hm
Been a long time that I'm feeling low
Asking myself is there something wrong
Maybe I should try to get diagnosed
Don't wanna cry, won't tears involved
Nerves to ceiling
Words curb all the feelings, yeah
Girls numb the searing
Drugs was not appealing, yeah
Searching for meaning
Concerned for my being, yeah
'Cause when I'm chilling
Absurd thinking kick in then
All of a sudden it's
Negative thoughts, thinking 'bout calling it
Maybe the problem is
Trauma from all my previous happenings
Ridiculous phobias
Don't wanna flop, scared of abandonment
Keeping it hidden and pushing 'em all
Before they get the chance
To penetrate my heart then
Take it out then throw it
On the ground
Just to laugh aloud
So instead I'll lock it away, yeah
Been through it too many
Way too many times before
Too many pieces left on the floor
I been trynna make peace with all the
Memory horrors but it's been harder
Underneath water got to breathe but I'm
Sinking deep and I cannot be bothered
Nah nah
Surely it shouldn't be this way