Doin Damage

It's hard to be sober but it's easy to be bent

When you got some extra money and don't need it for the rent

Got a girlfriend now, that I secretly resent

Cause she takes up all the time that I previously spent on myself

And girls just wanna have fun

And she be all fun when her job is done

But my job is another thing, 24/7 hustling

She wanting to do a couple things, cuddling

I like to watch movies, I really fucking do

But I can't stop moving just cause I fell in love with you

And now I'm just an irritable bastard

Like my homie E said a man can't serve two masters

And I've got a third one chillin' in my stomach

A little leprechaun screaming "alcohol I want it"

And he never ever shut up he says come on keep it coming

And the alcohol goes along with the music and the women

So I, black out on the regular

And it's rare I'm a end of the night rememberer

God damn, I'm a drunken mess

Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

I'm doing damage

Yeah, I'm doing damage

To my body and mind, I'm doing damage

Call the doctor, he'll probably find, I'm doing damage

My health just ain't what it used to be

Cause I done smoked a packed of cigarettes a day since I hit puberty

And stupidly, I keep on going and buying 'em

And my lungs probably got some cancer growing inside of 'em

And it, be effecting how I breathe at times

I hit playback, hear myself wheeze between the lines

I could probably quit if I was thinking clear

But my willpower goes out the window soon as I start drinking beer

And every freakin' year I got the same resolutions

January second I be making excuses

The leprechaun is a dangerous nuisance

Who sips champagne while he angrily two steps

I got a deal now, which should be essential

To straighten up my act and live up to my potential

But I just can't taste that success

Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

I'm doing damage

Yeah, man, I'm doing damage

It's probably gonna catch up soon, I'm doing damage

Call the doctor, I need a checkup soon, I'm doing damage

Bridge.

I didn't want to be this way

Didn't want to get like this everyday

But my formula's something that I can't touch

Cause I'm gonna cycle through in the clutch

I come through in the clutch, I come through in the clutch

I'm too much for you ducks to touch

I am illustrious

I am a bad mother fucker and I truly believe that

But I gave some shit up to achieve that

Like my family and my friends they don't call me anymore

Cause when they would call I would always hit ignore

I was always self-absorbed with absorbing myself

I drink it up drink it up drink it up 'til there's no more of myself

And I don't value my father and my mother enough

I don't value the company of others enough

And human interaction is an essential part of happiness

I believe, and that's what I've been rapping to achieve

And I didn't anyway cause I'm in love with this shit

But alcoholism and music something that comes with this shit

When you're living for yourself, it's a lonely existence

And if you talk to yourself, you gon' be the only one listening

And that about sums it up

I'm out of gin and I really want another cup

So I'm out, to the store I guess

Cause that's where I go when I'm fucking depressed

I'm doing damage