Voices

Promise I'll change but it doesn't happen

Sometime I feel like I'm stuck in this cycle of of acting

Like I'm alright

Pressure pushing and I'm trying to fight

But Never lookin to the people that might

Hold all the answers to why I've been sinning and dying inside

Pride

Don't make no sense I know that they'll listen

I'm tired of praying God can you forgive this

Maybe it's cause I know when I mess up

Forgiving myself ain't tradition

So I stay stuck in the prison I build

Man what happened I though these were the hills

Wish I just had someone willing to talk

Oh wait 1 missed call

Yo that's my bad Pastor

I promise I'm not tryna duck you

And yeah I haven't been present the last three Sundays

Look what I've come to

But don't worry man I have an excuse

I've have been going through mental abuse

The devil been hitting my mind to the point

That I don't got no time to go sit at the pews

So I've been isolated at crib

Fighting demons all alone instead

Once I clean em' out my broken shed

Then I'll be back at church to break some bread

Someone told me that I'm doing it backwards

Oh so you got all the answers and passwords

I have been serving God all of my life

I think I would know if I'm walking in hazards

All of a sudden I'm feeling attacked

Just leave me alone I know what I'm doing

Yeah I've been struggling and breakin' my back

But I gotta have hope that imma get through it

Speaking of hope

Why haven't you answered?

I have been praying and waving your banner

Someone tell God to hit my line

Cause I'm getting tired of using my manners

Oh my gosh

Can everyone please leave me alone

I just want some healing and help to deal with my pain

I know that my grades are low

It's getting harder and harder to praise him

My hands are frozen solid in the pavement

They tell me one day you'll see his amazement

But I think I just ran out of patience so I said

God you hear all my frustration

Thought this was your occupation

Rescued from the hands of Satan

But still hear his conversations

I just want an explanation

As to why he gets away with

All the things I see on my TV

Feel like we forsaken

How can I trust you Lord when I cannot

Discern the divine from a misleading thought

Don't know if it's Satan or God that's inspired this album

And that's got me wanting to stop

Man that's ridiculous

I know that I'm just overthinking this

But how do I know if I'm making right choices

With all these voices all of the voices, can't stop the

And that's when I realized

The real lies were the excuses I applied

To every single voice that I thought wasn't worth listening to

Day in day out I was miserable

Yet all the answers to my questions we're already visible

Praying for a miracle

Getting real spiritual with every syllable that I wrote

Tried everything just to cope with pain

That awoke these chains freezing cold

To wrap around my hands and pound my plans to a bloody pulp

Understand?

The demands of my mom to get up early

I thought was surely to pan to some stupid lesson

Until it cured my depression

I rose to my feet at 7:15 every morning

Brushed my teeth, workout routine, discipline was forcing

Me to be more productive

And my depression fell to nothing

When I listened everything changed

Pastor wanted me in church but I searched

For the physical voice of God to quench my spiritual thirst

Through other people he conversed but I emerged myself in isolation

The only conversation that had my concern

Was with the one that made the earth and all of creation

Then I killed off the separation

Went back to church and saw that communication with the father

Could come from many different places

He speaks through his vessels and through this revelation

I learned not to wrestle with correction and education

From certain leaders that I had peace from God

With what they were saying

When I listened everything changed

Because of all of this weight

My grades got the short end of the stick

I tried to trick my mind in a way that said

I can't click a pen and work while I'm sick and mentally hurt

I need to fix the painful pricks caused by a tick under my skin

Proclaiming that I'll never win then I

Can worry about work or reading a verse

But it was that very work that would help me get out of the rut

I then stuck to the books and set my eyes to look

At the pages and equations

And before I knew it anxiety was overlooked

It no longer had me shook

I was no longer behind and I had a lot more time on my hands

To focus on other plans and give my Bible a second glance

And yeah it made my music shine

But I didn't realize It would help get my mind

Over the heartbreak of a lifetime

When I listened everything changed

There's many voices in the valleys

Ones that keep you there

And the ones that feed you there

Feed you to have the strength to climb out

So I asked you now

Which voices are you listening to?

The ones the shout from the mountain tops

To make sure where you're at is not your finale

Or the ones that whisper the easier path we fall for sadly

A destination and decision no man can escape

The Hills and Valleys

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind

Ooh, I hear the voices in my mind yeah in my mind