Facing My Demons

Why do I feel like I gotta be somebody that the world wants me to be?

I was crazy, I was losin' it

Cocaine in my body, I'm abusin' it

I'm gettin' fucked-up on Percocet

I just received a call, it was a death threat

If I gotta die today and there ain't no other way

But shootin' me down then

Puttin' me up in the grave then I'ma face it

Look the shooter in his eyes

The one who can save me, is the Man in the sky

The one pullin' the trigger is the devil in disguise

For my children's sake, I'm tryna be alive

I'm a beast in the streets, I know how to survive

All my life I been doubted

Will I see 25? I doubt it

Rolls-Royce, bitch just know I just bought it

I just wanna be the man for my fam

I been through pain, I walk in the the rain

I look at my reflection up in the mirror

And I can admit that I feel so ashamed

I've done some dirt that I cannot forget

I'm wipin' the blood, I'm wipin' my sweat

The reason I killed him 'cause he posed a threat

I got some sons and I got a daughter

You playin' with me, there's gonna be a slaughter

I don't wanna live my life like this no more

I don't wanna sell this dope

The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid

I don't know what I'ma do

I'ma be a gangster forever

Ain't no love in the streets

And I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons

That evil, I've seen it

The money, the root of all evil, believe me

You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill

Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephew

Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephew

Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

I'm trying to change my life for the better

If I go to prison, would they write a letter?

Would they even care, if I wasn't there?

It feels like I got haters everywhere

Haters, suckers, motherfuckers

I was built like no other

It's a cruel world, they criticize your skin color

Mobbin', robbin', homicide for something that makes them feel alive

But I'm always curious to find out where I'ma go when I die

People hate me all the time, but they ain't even met me yet

I was born to win in last, so that ain't nothin' I'ma sweat

I came up off of sellin' that dope

Have you ever had the cops break down your door?

Have you ever had the cops put you on the floor and rob all of your dope?

No, you don't know, how that feels

You're totally broken and ready to kill

You're praying to God

Asking for a deal, "O Lord, I can't afford a meal"

I just want to go legit, I just feel like a piece of shit

I don't wanna live my life like this no more

I don't wanna sell this dope

The streets got me so fuckin' paranoid

I don't know what I'ma do

I'ma be a gangster forever

Ain't no love in the streets

And I don't trust you

I'm facing my demons

That evil, I've seen it

The money, the root of all evil, believe me

You rob, you steal, you pop a pill and you kill

Every time I need paper, this is the way that I feel

My brother told me do it for my nephew

Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you

My brother told me do it for my nephew

Bullets hit your body, now you leaving the rescue

One thing I know for certain

Every time you try to change, the devil's gonna come and test you