selfish (i wished you hated me)

(Demxntia)

Drown me in despair

I'm broken, way beyond repair

From sulking, over the times that we'd never get back

Drunk every night, with cigarette pack

But it's only fair that I'm broken, way beyond repair

I know that it's all my fault, I'm guilty as charged

I'd end it all, but that's not what you'd want

So it's hard to bear, 'cause I know you still care

But I wished you hated me

As much as you tried to

But you'd never hated me

As much as I do, oh, no, yeah

And my only fear for when I'm no longer here

Is that you'll find someone else who deserved all your tears

I know that sounds selfish, but I just can't help it

I've been well prepared

To go now, I'll be somewhere

You know how I tend to leave all the ones that I love

Just to pretend like I won't give a fuck

To see what we've build become a ghost town

Swallowed by guilt, like my pills, I've broken down

Every night I go through withdrawals

But it's only right for all of my wrongs

I'd be easier to bear, if you never cared

But I wished you hated me

As much as you tried to

But you'd never hated me

As much as I do, oh, no

And my only fear for when I'm no longer here

Is that you'll find someone else who deserved all your tears

I know that sounds selfish, but I just can't help it